I don’t fucking deserve this. How you’ve just disappeared from the face of this earth. I have been trying to give you the benefit of the doubt for a couple of weeks now and you aren’t showing me that you appreciate me, respect me, or frankly that you even care about me.
I feel lied to. I feel led on. I feel like everything you’ve said to me was just leading me on. I want to do ANYTHING but end this and I’m TRYING to give you a chance, as I know there has been A LOT of other shit going on. I cannot even begin to grasp any of this.
Completely blind sighted by the abrupt turn things have taken.
I’m really hurt right now. I never expected you to be this type of person. Suddenly not returning phone calls. Not texting. Ignoring every effort I’ve made to salvage what might be left of this ‘relationship’.
I have made every effort I possibly can. I tried sending sweet ‘thinking of you’ messages and phone calls. I’ve tried to give you space. And then I gave you an entire week with no contact, which killed me. And you’ve made absolutely no effort to talk to me.
So hurt. I feel shattered. I don’t know you that well, obviously. I haven’t known you long… but I feel like our chemistry didn’t lie. It was there. It was real.
I feel so damned vulnerable to it all. My heart has been through hell and back and I don’t know how much it can possibly handle. It’s already so fragile and on the verge of breaking. I deserve so much more than this.
I just want to talk to you one last time. I feel like I deserve to know when things changed. Why they changed, and how. Maybe it’s just the timing. I don’t know. There is no way I can know. But I KNOW that I won’t and can’t move forward with my life until I get some kind of closure. You telling me that it’s over. You ending things. Telling me why. Just give me the god damned chance to talk to you.. Just once.
God my heart hurts.